Digging into myself..

Digging deep into myself to see what I find...
all I feel is emptiness, trying to stay strong
but weakness always wins, the weakness 
of always having to stay strong.
I keep crying out that I don't belong here. 
I keep searching for the purpose of my 
existence. My heart has been tortured so
many times. I have been living a lie and I
still manage to find peace. There is a force 
deep within me, there's a voice that tells me
never to give up. If I gave up, I might as well
lay down and die.

I have only one best friend. One thing that will
never leave me no matter where or who I am
and that's music. Music is the reason I am still
here. It's the reason I haven't given up yet. I owe
everything I am to you.