Thursday 17 December 2015

I.M.Y.

I woke up this morning and something was missing.
How you used to greet me...
I used to smile because your words kept me alive, now I'm
lost in emptiness, spinning around.
Full of doubt, full of fear...I need you near.
This distance is deadly.
Still trying to find my place and as these tears roll down my face,
The more I think, the more I feel that everything around me is fake.

I wanted to build a new world with you. I still do. I miss you.
I miss you every day, every minute, every second.
Something's changed and it's beyond my control.
We've been to hell and back, you've seen it all. My best, my worst.
I opened my heart...something I never thought I'd be able to do.
You held it in your hand and made it beat again. I miss you terribly...
As each day passes, I feel weaker, I die a little more,
But I'm still here trying to stay strong.

I want it back...what used to be.
I want to have a reason to live.
It was so beautiful...
I wanna go back to that place, the paradise we created, that's where I felt safe.
True love can take a whole lot.
It's weird how my love for you is so strong that it breaks my heart.
Does that even make sense?
I don't know.
I do know this though...
You've become a part of me, a part of my body, a gem in my soul
I don't ever want to lose or let go.

Saturday 5 December 2015

Control Freak

You're weak,
You're fake,
You're lost,
You break.
You fear,
You hate,
You lie,
Too late.

Late to apologize,
Late for compromise,
Late to realize you were wrong and
I was right.
Uncontrollable control freak,
You think you control me,
You think you have me,
You don't know me.
Sad...after all these years,
You have me in tears,
But you make me face my fears.

You left,
I bled,
You fell,
I felt dead.
You were cruel,
I was kind,
You frowned when I smiled.

You tore down what I had built,
Took what was mine.
Though I may weep at night,
When I look in the mirror,
I see a heart full of light.